I adore in everything the Most Holy Will of God. I am in a bottomless abyss of miseries, of blindness, and above all, under the horrendous scourge of the omnipotent God. I know that I am incapable of any good, because I do not deserve lights or graces, but only chastisements. I am discovering more and more that God is angry with me. It is a just punishment for my great sins.